Goodnight, pals. For your information, I promised my self not to touch this kind of site called blog or something cause I think my life is going to be easier. Well, I was wrong.. I mean, my life is not getting harder but it is just not getting easier, thou. I just don't have anyone to share. Actually I do. I have a lot but hmm.. I don't know why I chose blog to be my best friend for now.

So... Here are the things.
I just woke up and there's something forced myself to open the laptop. Maybe it sounds ridiculous but seriously, I feel like such a mess with no reason. Let's start with word "tired".
I'm tired..
Tired of being compared with someone else. Godknowswho&why. Okay, I won't blame anyone else here. I'm the one who started, so I'm the one who should take the risks. Shit, I hate saying this :|
I'm tired of being a strong girl. I thought I was different. I thought I was stronger, but I'm not. I feel like there are a lot of people whispering on my ear and say.... You can't do this... He's just not that into you... You're not gonna be the one... And something like that.
Can you guys imagine yourself being me? Having a relationship with someone that you think really "fit" on you, but you guys still have discrepancy thingy. It's always hard when it comes to religion. For god sake, I'm tired of thinking about it. I don't know how is it going to end. And when it comes to an end that "really" end, you better kill myself :|
Everybody may call it galau, but it's not. It is just a girl that has nothing to do and try to share an unimportant-complicated-story of her.